aargh

.. moving on is easy, letting go is hard. im at the stage of moving on but its realli2 hard for me to let go. two fucking years with u. lots of things we been thru together. sweet memories. bad memories. happyness. joyness. sadness.

why do i ave to cry again when ure so happi with ur life now. shit. why do i really in love with u. im losing my grip, wats happening to me. why am i being so emo. :( i was never lyk ths b4. u changed me.

kifarah cinta

.. its a loooong nite. i just cant get my eyes close. teringatkan dirimu.. i tried to sleep but i cant... listen to music while looking at all our photos together.. anywhre everwhere.. genting, laundry, royale bintang, grand paragon,jb, langkawi, malacca, curve, in d car, on the bed, buka puasa ere n thre, pak li, coffee bean mount kiara, KLIA, my 24th birthdae, ur 24th birthdae .. so many great nostalgia & sweet memories .. i smiled & cant stop tears from coming out simultaneously.. it was precious to have u in my life. i am the lucky guy on earth to be with u. unfortunately it was only lasts for two years. thats more than enough to take the life out of me. it takes a minute to have a crush on u, an hour to like you, a day to love u.. n it gonna takes a lifetime to forget u. ure so special from others.

.. u went out to God knows where.. m ere waiting for u to come back. i looked out through the window when cars passed by. hoping it was u.. idiot. i knew that u wont come back but deep inside me i somehow or rather wish that u would come back.. stupid! keepon dreaming. *sigh*

.. nity nite bb where ever ure now. might be sleeping, might be hanging around with friends, might be having fun with friends. might be in the same situation as i am now. might missing me as well.. ermmmm. i wouldn't know. but i do hope u miss me as much as i do. nah, doesnt make sense i guess. stupid!..

hati mengukir kata

.. went out to pick up things at sunway tadi.. i miss u sitting next to me in d car. chatting while driving, feed me fries while i was driving, sharing drinks together, quiet while listening to music at times, singing together etc etc ... shit, i miss those kinda memories & nostalgia together. but now... things started to changed. well, maybe this is the best for u & me. this is what u always been wanted. so no regret from urside i presume. hope u r happy with ur own life. freedom to be with whoever u wish.. be whereever u want to be.. **i miss yOu** mwahkxx mwahkxx mwahkxx.. kiss for u from far.

Rembulan Pujaan

.. ermm. its been a while. yea, been quite sumtimes since the last post... maybe due to bz with classes n other stuffs. tryin to work things out hoping that it'll be just right on track. try to patch & fix up things. to smooth up the journey of me n u..having said that, me being idiot who loves someone who doesnt love me. that is the saddest part in my life.

.. again, another pathetic story of mine. how am i goin to start this. how am i goin to face this again n again..? well, this is not the first or second time.. our relationship had never been good lately. ill try to work things out. to save love & relationship that i've built within this past 2 years. wat more can i do. wat other options do i ave in order to make u understand..? its too late now, as u dumped me.. yeah, again n again. i've been put my pride & dignity to the lowest point many times just to convince n prove to u how much u meant to me. i acted like a stupid idiot moron in front of everyone just to make sure that u'll stay and does not walk out of my life. then again, i fail and it takes the life out of me..

.. i know, i was never a good partner for u. i fail to become as wat u want. to be ur prince charming as u always wanted. flashing back few semesters back, the first time i met u. maybe ure just confused with us self. u tot i was the one. as time passed by u realized that im not the one. ingat lagi, how u managed to change me. to become loyal to u. to love u with all my heart. to just look at u n not others. well, somehow or rather i managed to change bit. phase by phase. i started to b loyal to u. yeah i did say hi etc to some ppl but that doesn't mean that i have any intention towards them. to me, they're just like friend.. means nothing more than just friend.

.. you been my obsession (due to .....), total madness dreadful mess. losing u from my life made my mind suffered relapses. **sigh**

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