tirai malam

.. ermm.. tot things would b back to normal. ......

how am going to start this. well again, mix emotions occured. i cried n let it out to you about what and how i felt these past few days. u were listening n though i hope u understand. things back to normal without any doubt in my heart. tot that u can listen n accept to what i said. then again, i dont mind of what has happened. u x even tell me that u were ere since early in the morning. u went to the training without inviting or tagging me along. well, i dont mind that but u x even tell me that ure going this morning. *sigh*

after all, i dont mind all that either. coz to me i just wanna b with ya. going thru life as normal. be as what it was supposed to be. again, i asked you whther u love me or not. u answered truthfully that u feel nothing towards me. empty. just dont think about it too much. as long as ure next to me n im next to u that more than enough. *sigh*

it make me think back again. am i like forcing you to b with me. did u be with me just because u dont wanna see me crying like a baby. will that reali make me happy. that was not what i want. i know that i cant force u either. shit. i just dont know how long things gonna be like this. crying again n over again. i just cant take it. in fact, i cant even live without u. why am i like really stuck in this kind of situation. ya Allah, help me n gimme some guidance.

tah lah. ak rasa bersalah sgt. hidup tanpamu ku sakit. bersama juga sakit. i just dont know. when r u going to understand me. to dig what inside my heart that i wanted to b with u so badly. to love n be loved.