when would the wounds heals

.. i wonder if u miss me this past few days. but how am i goin to know if ure or not.. u x even tell me that ure coming back to shah alam. i wonder why. things that u told me were to send your lappy n jeans. thats how i figure out that ure coming back or maybe ure back already. again mix emotion over my mind. i cried for a while while working after u text me. **sigh** why cant u text me saying that ure on ur way or sumthing. whats wrong with that. u knw ive been waiting for u to come back. i tried to b strong pretending as if im ok but deep inside me im dying. i cried at time thinking of u. thinking of whats gonna happen next. i never stop thinking about u. every hour. every minutes. every seconds. from the moment i woke up from sleep til the end of the day. life is all about sadness n frustation as well as wondering.

.. day at work. people been lauhging, chatting n had fun. so do i coz i just laughed outside but dying inside. i couldnt pay attention n focus on work. my mind keep on thiking abt you after knowing that ure already ere. tot of just leave work n go to you but it was busy day at work. i've to carry on with responsibilities n promise to work till at least 6pm. that make me more upset. few times i went to toilet as cant stop tears from coming out coz i realli2 wanted so badly to see u. but then again it pop up to mind. what will happen next after we meet up. fight..? another scene..? happy..? sad..? emotions..? anger..? shitt.. i just cant stop myself from thinking those things.

.. trying to hold you from goin to KLWMBC as i wanted to spend time with u. i dont mind giving up on work just to be with u.. wats the point of having money but deep inside me is not happy. at least i did tried to ask u not to go. but u still insists on going. i cant do much or u would repeat ur same dialogue saying that im controlling ur life. no that is not wat it was suppose to mean. i just wanna be with u after all the sadness n frustration. i just can be at home without u.

.. when i was driving on my way back, i think abt whats gonna happen later. i cried thinking that worst might happen n somehor or rather crossed to my mind that i would rather jump from the windows if u might say somethng that hurts me. i just can accept it anymore. i am dying every seconds. the reasons why i live is to get another chance from u. hoping that u would understand my feelings n wats inside.. i miss u bb..



**wonder if u actually miss me these past few days**
frankly speaking i misss you so much n it hurts.


xoxo.